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Name: TÃmon-Eddy Nicholas Brown
Birthday: 12/5/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: I'm interested in just about anything. You name it.. I probably have some type of interest in it.
Expertise: I'm not what you would call an expert.. but hey, who cares.. I have fun doing what I can. I play flute, and my new found game is VOLLEYBALL BABY!! I compose music. I like Math(algebra) and chemistry.. two favorite subjects... And I am on this seemingly endless journey to find LOVE.... so far, not so much as a girlfriend.... but I never give up.. even when I actually do give up.. LOL...
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  UnknownKid00000
MSN: diK_suomynonA@hotmail.com
Member Since:
11/17/2003
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| It has been a while since I updated. After what happened with my friend things have changed in how I have been doing things, in my mindset. Anyways....I've been adjusting....and I'm still adjusting.
Well, the reason I'm here is because well, recently I have been putting my heart into something, and everything for once seemed like it was heading in a good directions....and then it all came crashing down upon me. And now, I'm just confused. Who do I like? I like one girl..and just when I think I've got it all figured out....2 more girls pop in and then I don't know which direction to go...like how do you choose between them all? one is good in one area another is better in another area and the other is better in another area. All great choices, but there isn't a fair comparison. It's not like I choose this one because they are better. It's so confusing. Anyways...my foot feels dry.
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| I cried for the first time today regarding Bryan's death. I'm still confused why it happened only now.. | | |
| So, i totally like her. but I feel like i'm ruining everything. But then again, I think I'm mostly afraid. I wanna tell her, but I think I'm actually a little afraid of rejection because I like her so much. I'm not even sure if I can even bring it up. Well, I've had a lot going on in my life as of recently. i've made a lot of bad decisions, and I've had a ton of bad things happen. I have a roommate, which isn't terrible, except they defyed the one thing I hate, they are trying to make it freezing cold in here. Essentially, I'm going to have my window open all the time just to get heat into my room, plus, my door is going to be closed to keep more heat in. I've also closed all my vent so that the cold air flow is sealed out. I'm still trying to adapt. And I'm finally done with the Bryan situation. he has disappeared, so I'm going to see what the cops say about it, but after that, I'm going to leave all the work up to them. If they find him, then ok.. but he isn't come back here... I don't wish to see him again. I finally got rid of all that stuff. I'm also now looking for a new place to live. Let's just say, I'm very much tired of this place. anyways..... I think I can break free of this silence thing I've apparently been having. I think i just didn't want to talk about the bryan situation with anyone. anyways, I'm finally starting to feel better. :D | | |
| Bryan is ticking me off, he's stayed beyond his welcome. Do not expect this generousity from me again sir! Anyways, other than that, I'm planning on coming home.....going home. That was wrong initially. My plan is to leave on friday, and get back probably on sunday. This is this placement test that I was planning on taking, but if I've worked it out right, then taking the test is irrelevant. i dont' need to take it because if I get a C or lower then all is over anyways. Although, I'd have to figure out what I'm going to do for another 6 or more months. I should have enough to get me through the rest of the year. I really need to focus on saving. Oh, and I guess I need to balance my checkbook again. I haven't done that in a while. So i'll get to that now I guess. I'll be here for like another hour because the CCD stuff is now off schedule so, i was supposed to run at 2, but now I'm going to run at some time around 5...it sucks very much so. Well, anyways, i'm going to get to that so that I can tell what I have in my account. Peace! | | |
| So, it's been a while since I've updated...and so I've officially failed my past self by not updating at least as regularly as I was expecting to. although, I haven't completely failed myself, because I still do update. WEll, I don't really know what to talk about. Bubba is getting on my nerves with his ability being so high, but his unwillingness to comply with the rules. he can hold it for 8 hrs, but yet he chooses to squirt whenever he feels like it. So, I'm going to have to make adjustments...but I'm not entirely sure how. How do I get him to understand that peeing in the house is bad, and that he needs to hold it not just let go. How do I get him to tell me that he needs to go out? If he could just tell me when he needs to go out, that would be helpful. And I guess tell me in a way that I can understand that "going outside" is what he wants to do. last time he tried, I didn't even know he was trying to tell me anything. And how he told me was not acceptable anyways. Anyways. There may be a possibility of a girl in my life, I don't know yet. It'll be a while before I know if things will be heading in that direction. I kind of hope that they do. I'm ready for something to move in that direction now. I have enough knowledge base to just understand why I want what I want now.... to the most extent. Well that's about it. I"m a little behind on my comics due to less visitation of the site, so I'm going to catch up on those. Latz | | |
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